Just gotta rant…


Everything sucks. Colleagues are passive aggressive and infuriating. Two of my colleagues resigned earlier this year and I’ve been ashamed into feeling bad for not doing all of their work successfully. It’s affected my depression so bad that I’ve been having more thoughts of suicide and self harm than I ever have before. Please note - I’m okay and I wouldn’t do it. I couldn’t do that to my students; they’re what I’m holding onto. Oh, and I legit hit burn out for the first time ever… because alli wanted to do was help even thought I had no idea what I was doing. I’m glad I made the move to prep and start applying for other jobs.

The good thing is I’ve realized what I want in a relationship and I refuse to settle for less. The downside to this is seeing how many commitment issues the gay community has - the fear of acknowledging and working on personal trauma is rampant and ridiculous. Everyone goes at their own speed, but come on guys…do yourself a favor and take the time to breathe and process.

I hate my work life. I hate my personal life. I’m frustrated with my family life. I need an out…